your mind tells you that
you've lost your confidence.
you're drifting and you
don't believe in anywone.
to lose what little you have
left to be proud of.
afraid you can't do this again.
you said that nothing could
come in between us.
and the way your getting
things we wanted done.
then enosiophobia held you
under it's influence
until you compromised your style.
everything about you has been
one big sharade.
what will you do now
that the well's run dry?
to sell out all your friends
and stab them in the back.
it's something that you are.
it's something that i'm not.
when you force me into
doing what you love.
mark my words no one
loves you very much. (eh, fuck 'em)
and when you tried to change me
and tried to replace me
i couldn't help but anticipating you.
being a fraud can only
last so long (you should know)
so what you sensed
as a child returns. (you little baby)
to choke out the voice
that told you money and fame
would fill the cradle
that you dug for yourself.
unlike you, i'm no vision to myself.
lest you forget, you didn't ever
make metal, but metal made you.
to crush and run over everyone along the way
it's something that you are.
it's something that i'm not.
a stranger to yourself.
you pissed me off again.
i won't be driven by your needs anymore.
what did you come to do or be?
it's clear to see for me.
it's something that you are.
it's something that i'm not.
it makes me sick to hear you
say you love me.
i know you only love
what i can do for you.
if you were the one that
was leading a charge
would you notice if i missed
a day or two? (but that's impossible)
we all laughed at the parody
that you've become.
now your pain's lowly
payback has begun.
so accept my resignation
or in your words, "betrayal"
before it gets much worse
and there's self-sabotage.
something i'm not.
something that you are.
something i'm not.
solo
something i'm not.
something that you are.
something i'm not.
something that you are.
something that i'm not... yet.
