the paddingtons adlı harikulade indie rock grubunun first comes first albümünden bir şarkı. sözleri ve müziğiyle kanımca intihar meselesine en ironik yaklaşımı yapan, depresyon hırkası yaktıran, "ölmek istiyorum yhaa" diyenlere labisktirgitöl diyen şarkıdır. dirty pretty things tarafından akustik olarak yorumlanmıştır, leziz ötesi olmuştur.
sözleri,
if you wanna die
go on and commit suicide
you wanna live i know
you gotta get em by the throat
if you wanna die
go on, keep commiting suicide
you wanna live don't you?
well i do too
but you don't know, don't know she cares
if you say so, but it's not quite fair
so anyway, anyway she'll leave me alone
so anyway, you said so yourself so no
you two decide
choose when if you wanna stay alive
keep yourself in my eye
don't say that you cannot see inside
you wanna die
go on commit suicide
you wanna live dont you?
well i do too
but you don't know,and i don't know she cares
and she said so, but she's not quite there
i said anyway, anyway you leave me alone
anyway you said so yourself so no
"i am paralyzed, so afraid to die..." kısmında labrie * vokalinin ne kadar paralize edici olduğunu insanın kafasına vuran harikulade dream theater parçasıdır.
Which way to turn, is there any way out?
Inside my mind I scream and shout
Terrible anguish,
what's happening to me?
Somebody please set my soul free
Dug induced or maybe insane
What the fuck is wrong with my brain?
Only grows stronger, pain it grows bigger
Somebody please pull the damn trigger
Anxiety, the panic attack
Any way for me to get back
Heart is racing, mind is a blur
Cold sweat, palpitations occur
Discontent with life
Get this monkey of my back
Anxiety, the panic attack
Someone to talk or maybe a friend
Only draws nearer the ominous end
Heart racing faster, just might explode
It's all in my head, that's what I'm told
Consummate professional curing my ills,
Stop wasting my time
with those dumb little pills
Who can I cry to? I turn here and there
Tears on my pillow, I rip out my hair
Lost count of the girls
Still I'm not sane or content
with this world
Discontent with life
Discontent with life
