it was in the winter of my fiftieth year
when it hit me
i was really alone
and there wasn't a hell a lot of time left
every laugh and touch that i could get
became more important
strangely, i became more bookish
and my home and study meant more to me
as i considered the circumstances of my death
i wanted to find a balance between joy and dignity
on my way out
above all, i didn't want to take any more shit
not from anybody
ingilizcede "hadi oradan!" şeklinde kullanılan ünlemdir. amerika, ingiltere veya ingilizce konuşulan herhangi bir yerde çok kullanılan ve bir imkansızlığı belirten şaşkınlık cümlesidir. argodur, kabadır ama iyi çocuktur. ayrıca (bkz: you gotta be kidding me)
